Sunday, October 4, 2009

" Joy of giving"

Give india organisation's idea of conducting an " joy of giving week" all over our country was commendable. In a way the event brought the entire country together for a noble cause.
The inspiring stories on their website were brilliant and the participation coming from all walks of life was very encouraging too. Mostly all the Ngo's in the country came forward and did their part.
Some were Spreading the awareness regarding a social aspect and some raising funds for a cause.
The wonderful example set by auttowallahs of chennai for coming together and do " Annadana" by preparing the food and serving to the needy was heartful to see.
I was very much interested in participating in some way or other, so everyday was checking the website "Joy of givingweek" to know about any events happening in hyderabad. I did find many events but dont know why dint i feel like going to any event and giving a helping hand!!

Must be becuase i thought it dint matter even if i go and help or because i dint have any urge to do something!! you never know the reason for being stupid, Do you??

So the week went by like any other week would go and finally the last day arrived.
Now all of a sudden the urge came to atleast be some part of joy of giving week,even if in a tiny-winy way it would be great i thought.

But in what way could i contribute???

I asked myself this question and pat came the reply tomatoes!!!!

I have fallen in love with cooking and tomatoes are my favourite especially the pulpy dark red ones!!!

So i thought why not prepare Tomatoe bath and give it to a beggar( actually not a beggar but a person who is in need ),but how could i give it to him??

Cant just take it in hands and give!! so i bought two plastic tiffin boxes with spoons.
Initially i had thought of giving only one person but i said why not 2?? it costs 40Rs.

I prepared the tomato bath, I might not be the best cook but whatever i prepare turns out to be best!!!!

The taste was good and i put extra ghee in it, and then packed it in two boxes and took a bag and kept the bag in Bike and started..

Now this is the interesting part!!

I started on this unusual journey of finding a beggar, unusual because everytime we find them near traffic lights and on roadside but we searching for them!! this was a change from usual.

The strange thing was when i was searching i could not find any for first 10 minutes, i had covered a good 2 km of area.

What it clearly signifies is that when you are trying to do something good you are ought to face difficulties!!!!

I found a raggpicker, he was a young boy and was busy doing his work and i stopped the bike in front of him and only stopped!!! dint do anything !! I really dint know how to approach, what should i say?? Should i ask him was he hungry?? or just give the box to him!! Then i decided that i will give it to people who are dire need of food. this guy dint look like one!!!

So went on the journey and found some of the beggars( women) sleeping at the doorsteps of shops on roadside. It was around 10pm and it was damn cold,it had rained for the entire day and these people were sleeping without blankets that too on cold floor!!

I felt very bad and the feeling only increased when i knew i couldn't do anything,It was awful feeling and it had helpnessness to go with it.

Then i went to a temple were i was sure to find people in dire need of food,and as i had expected i found some of them sitting at doorsteps of the temple. I couldn't say if they were hungry by looking at them but i decided to give them anyway!!!

Took the boxes from bike, hesitated for a moment!! Then said jai guru dev and just went and gave one box to a women who readily accepted and simultaneously one more hand came out asking, the hand dint have a finger!!! gave it to him and turned around and went!!

Guruji says that do seva and forget,dont expect even gratitude from them if you are expecting that then it would be useless since it would amount to business of give and take.

Coincidentally even swami vivekananda says that, serve people you will get thousand fold back but do not serve in expectation of getting it back. Do seva and forget and it will return!!
All enlightened souls preach the same, you have to understand it!!!

Hence i dint even look back, and went near the bike but i could hear their voices, they were talking among themselves. The lady first said it might be upma but got to know and said it was what it was meant to be tomato bath!! Then a small child who was along with them started laughing the moment he heard bath!!! At this moment i realised what is

The satisfaction which you get after giving cannot be expressed but has to be felt!!!
I was happy that i participated in the event in a small way but i learnt more by doing it.
What i did could have quenched the hunger of only couple of them that too only for a single day for that matter only a single meal for the day. What about tomorrow,day after tomorrow??
A question to think on, isn't it??

I just hope that guruji gives me more heart to do such deeds and in some way help. I was just the instrument through which god gave food to his devotees, hope i become a musical instrument which does not stop playing...............

"Jai guru deva"


Friday, October 2, 2009

If i had been a dog it would have been easier to bell the "CAT"

2 months and 3 days to go for the D-day i.e the toughest entrance examination in India if not in asia!! "CAT". I had enrolled into "TIME" institute on july 19th and started attending classes from 21st july and by far the progress has been good but lot is there to improve especially the amount of hours i put on desk!!

In our intro class ( Intro to cat ), sir had told, Percentile would be directly proportional to the amount of hours put on the desk. Now considering that it is not a good scenario for me who cannnot put in long hours of study!! But if i have to get a decent percentile i might have to change a few perceptions i hold about myself.
The coaching institute which i had selected is the best, the quality of the teaching is by far been excellent and some teachers have even inspired me!!!
There are 3 main sections in which we need to be expert namely
1] Verbal
2] Logical and data interpretation( Generally both mixed, it is here where you wish you had better brains)
3] "Quantitative"

Verbal is something which interests me since i am an avid reader this has given me the chance to try to become a voracious reader which is something i always wanted to be!! This is one section which can help me out on final day.

Data interpretation involves graphs, tables and percentages. It can be done but loads of practice is required!!
Logical reasoning is sometimes fun but most of the times it cracks my head and i wish i could have more hair to pull of my head!!!

Now coming to the ultimate villian "quant", Frankly speaking i have made it a villian since i have not practiced a lot of it and am not thorough with the concepts something which is a shame to say only 2 months prior to examination!! But still it is giving me goosebumps and dreadful mock examinations.

Speaking of mock examinations, I have been writing Aimcats but with little success. The first aimcat i wrote, guessed all the answers since not even one class had finished!!
The second aimcat was pretty good scored 81.2 percentile something which i never expected so obviously i was over the moon and was thinking on the lines of scoring in higher 90's in cat but it dint take me long to come back to reality actually it took only 4 days for the result of next aimcat to come and it was a nightmare 43!! Half of previous!! My god!! Since then i have concluded not to take seriously the scores of aimcats but if its a good score i can consider it!!!

Jokes apart the miserable aimcats are clearly failures but stepping stones for success, something which i need to realise and implement. Later scores have been hovering around mid 60's and sometime above 70 but practically of no use!!!

I need to work like a donkey a " smart" one too bell the cat or if i continue to be as lethargic i am then i can forget of an MBA something which i cannot afford to!!!

So 2 months!! Its now or never!!!
Wrote this blog to inspire myself something which i am in need of!!!

Jai guru deva